just not so religious

Been so reluctant to put up things here, yes I am not so religious.
I guess if someone who is so not into finding the true relationship on net, it would be pretty hard for him to search the web, I mean going through all the pages, the dating pages, the erotic web pages, to find the local one who is the exactly the same, lunging for the true love.
I am not of a little bit femality at all, but I do think there is nothing wrong of spending the time to do it. But In the end, I gotta say I wasted a lot time, instead of that I could really do some serious reading. ha ha
This is the entry after 12 months when I had my last totally free and boring holiday. I am petrified by the bubbly of my grandma, who is deaf, but she could keep on talking like a really host of a radio station, seriously, 24/7 non-stop, I love her. For she's kind. But I could put on my headset and listen to some music rater listening to her. Cause her vision is not so good either, that she could not really get what I am doing from that side of the sofa. ha ha
My boring holidays start every year after Christmas to the end of the spring festival. Cause I have to spend time with my family. But they are not boring, I am the boring one, for here is no fun at all. I finally have to stay at home to take care of everything for them. From the kid brother and sister 's school to everything detail of their homework. My mam is free, like totally. Cause she never did care about me, how I am, what I am thing or anything else, I am her slaver. And she can get out to play poker, or dance or anything else all day long. For my father, I hardly see him around like for ever, we don;t have a single same topic to talk about. All I can do is to solve all the problems they having on hands. They could leave the damn TV to be fixed for 3 months till my holidays' here. I gotta it fixed in a second. Well, all I can do is to say all these here, but I love them, and that makes me willing to do thing to them. And I gotta the claims of being handy around.
I guess I will go to swim for this weekend or soemthing else like start my french class.
Quo sa.
That is for this time.

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1 the explanation of a relationship of two men

The explanation of a domestic partnership is just as simple as one bonding with different sex. It just goes to different people which happen to be the very same sex.
But one thing here is that the affiliation between two people are the same, the very needs of being cared or caring, the very feels of be loved or loving one another.
The only difference is that it goes a guy from a guy or just to a gal from a girl.
Maybe I've got this all wrong. But from my prospect that it seems like that when it comes to gay, people would think it's dirty, and it would always go to Erotic, sex between two have huge age difference, things like bazaar. Simply like that, then people would think that being gay is all wrong.
Well I have to admit that I have the exact feeling about this for a while too. This confusion comes a long way back then. How I went throughout all this is a long story. But I am still struggling for it, if I get to truly frankly. So maybe this is not a really good ideal of me writing a story about my love story at all/
Ha. It backfired at me where I did not realize that. Gee.